There is something rather right about the three of them in a place together. It was just that for so long, but she still misses Nina and Wylan, still sends prayers to Sankt Demyan for Matthias at night. The six of them had become a family. The three of them here could still be.
"Was that a laugh?" she muses, tilting her head a little to the side, almost like she's studying him. She'd actually really like to earn a real one from him one day. "Mag isn't you," she points out. "Most people aren't. And this is regular inn, Kaz." Not something backed by gangs. She isn't worried about getting in trouble, half the people in here would be just as likely to serve themselves because they also work or live here anyway.
As she talks, she slips up onto the edge of the bar, swinging her legs over to the other side of it, sliding her hand surreptitiously back toward his as she leans back on her arms. There if he wants it. Or not if he doesn't. No pressure, because she wouldn't want it, herself.
There's something so... grounding in hearing that from him. The small sort of admission he wouldn't let slip to anyone else– she was always the one that goes those confessions, though, wasn't she? "It's The Singularity... you'll have to go into the Horizon. The first time is... very disorienting. You'll hate it, but...after, it is...like a dream. A dream that you can control, in any way you want. If you want the sky to be purple, it is. It's- amazing." Not that she spends a lot of time in hers, but it's nice to go to on occasion. "It's vulnerable to go into it, though... it's a mental space that feels like reality, but your true body is still out here," she gestures with her free hand at the space around them. "you're essentially unconscious the entire time you're inside of it." Which is, for many, many reasons, part of the reason she doesn't go to the Horizon as much as some people tend to.
"But the magic... once you start gaining those abilities... you can use them any time. Much more limited than the Small Science of the Grisha, but useful all the same. And you can build on the spells that you learn. Make them stronger with practice." It's all very awe-inspiring to her, like being granted something from a Higher Power.
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"Was that a laugh?" she muses, tilting her head a little to the side, almost like she's studying him. She'd actually really like to earn a real one from him one day. "Mag isn't you," she points out. "Most people aren't. And this is regular inn, Kaz." Not something backed by gangs. She isn't worried about getting in trouble, half the people in here would be just as likely to serve themselves because they also work or live here anyway.
As she talks, she slips up onto the edge of the bar, swinging her legs over to the other side of it, sliding her hand surreptitiously back toward his as she leans back on her arms. There if he wants it. Or not if he doesn't. No pressure, because she wouldn't want it, herself.
There's something so... grounding in hearing that from him. The small sort of admission he wouldn't let slip to anyone else– she was always the one that goes those confessions, though, wasn't she? "It's The Singularity... you'll have to go into the Horizon. The first time is... very disorienting. You'll hate it, but...after, it is...like a dream. A dream that you can control, in any way you want. If you want the sky to be purple, it is. It's- amazing." Not that she spends a lot of time in hers, but it's nice to go to on occasion. "It's vulnerable to go into it, though... it's a mental space that feels like reality, but your true body is still out here," she gestures with her free hand at the space around them. "you're essentially unconscious the entire time you're inside of it." Which is, for many, many reasons, part of the reason she doesn't go to the Horizon as much as some people tend to.
"But the magic... once you start gaining those abilities... you can use them any time. Much more limited than the Small Science of the Grisha, but useful all the same. And you can build on the spells that you learn. Make them stronger with practice." It's all very awe-inspiring to her, like being granted something from a Higher Power.