[ that he does not have facts gives him cause for concern, and he wonders if something happened to sylvain that he renders their relationship more distant than he's ever felt it. but sylvain was always like that: he can't charge him for not doing his duty because sylvain would always act in a way to protect him. even if he disagrees with him. he acted like his older brother, if he were allowed to think of it like such, complications about the idea of families and siblings aside. sylvain was like that.

he's going to keep his word not to press him for more information. he can see it distresses him. all he says to that is, ]

I am not going to accept your apology, Sylvain. You are acting in what you believe is best, and I won't fault you for that. There is nothing to apologize for.

If you wish to drink, feel free. I hope you don't mind if I refrain from doing so.

... as for being here, well ... it is not ideal. I have been treated well, but I worry about the work and what we've been thrown into.